bye 2011

you were a bitch year and i gladly bid you farewell.i've never had to deal with so much bad karma in a given time phase so i'm starting to believe it foreshadows a peaceful end. it has to.when you've hit rockbottom that's usually an indication of due relief. i guess in retrospect,my lowest point wasn't so much breaking up,breaking my teeth or getting 8 root canals but letting someone i revile go down on me on my darkest day.that is one moment i wish to forever erase.

2012 will be all about chucking every singlemost bad memory and looking to the most amazing end of my 43rd year.it will end with closure.it will end with clarity.most of all, it will end with that one moment where everything comes together in ohm.needing nothing.and the best part is, i won't be here anymore only because it is something i've chosen and willed.that's what a final triumph is, when you don't let the larger things determine and control your destiny, but you are the ultimate master of your fate and captain of your soul.

peace out.

"Adversity is like a strong wind. It tears away from us all but the things that cannot be torn, so that we see ourselves as we really are." - Arthur Golden