healing.

so the lip injury is healing up nicely and scabbing. the braces are a tad uncomfortable but ironically my lower row has never been straighter. the chipped front incisor is still a bitch and i've been trying to use all ways and means to file the sharp end so it won't keep impaling my lowerlip

all in 2011 has been a time of healing. from all sorts of trial by fire. i guess as ray says, i never do things half-hog. if i ever get into a car crash i'd probably total the entire machine along with myself. but more importantly it's made me more aware of my strengths and what i am capable of. somedays i wonder why i wake up at all but my spirit would drive me to fulfill and function.
as with the renal issues, the chronic pain has more or less subsided. my doc's main concern is my passing out again from low bp but high sugars inducing a brain aneurysm. perhaps i should wear a football face helmet wherever i go haha. ironically i'm more resilient to physical than emotional suffering. i'd take more blunt force trauma over a heartbreak. it hurts and heals faster.

what's emerged from this year of hard-knocks is i've become very indifferent about living. it's really a continual journey of unrelenting suffering which we will inevitably confront. what we can do is simply tide it out, transcend the pain and look solely on the hour of reckoning, which i know will be a final release from doubt and despair. and i will slip away with the biggest smile on my face, chipped tooth and braces intact.


as always, they're my rock & sunshine


and then there are other reasons to rejoice haha