what i learn from my folks.

today i spent a good part of the day with mum in hospital and accompanying my dad.
their vulnerability yet strength teach me so much.

her fighting spirit even in physical suffering, her will to live.
his resilience in constant trials and yet his quiet lonely moments.

in her i could see how you would want to live on for your loved ones. although she couldn't speak, her eyes said that she was not ready to go. she could sense him in the room, even as we held her hands while she struggled to keep it together.

in him i could see how you have to fight for your goals and beliefs. the turmoils, the adversities. all his life it was physical and mental challenges. he had a stammer, he was physically weak. all this he overcame with an iron will i can relate to.

now my problems seem miniscule compared to theirs. why am i whining about heartbreak and sadness?it's a mere kink in my life's goals.

anyway, as i stood over her and held her shoulder, i uttered a prayer. a simple request to channel all my years to bring her back to better health. i didn't need them as much as she. or dad. i wanted my Reiki light to heal her somewhat, even if it didn't make sense. i could feel its aura come through. and now my brother texts me to say she's better, smiling and becoming more lucid. i  believe if you will something with a positive attitude, something good can come of it.

namaste.