spectrum.

i've weaned myself off fb for awhile, if only to communicate with pals occasionally. i've stopped posting there because i think it's inane to update your pals on your every move or thought. it's only valuable for linking articles or photos which are interesting or edifying.

the posts are sometimes downright banal. there are tai-tais who post their meals, their children's every move to the whiners who complain about everything. it's not terribly entertaining tbh. so well, i'm more or less done with the social network. i shall retreat into relevant living and improving my righteous pursuits.

yesterday i managed to spend the day taking care of peeps, business and my pet. it was rewarding. after a jog and breaking a sweat, i went to prep for saturday's meal which if all goes well, should be also rewarding. i guess my social side comes in doses. other than that, i'd rather spend it alone with lex and allow ourselves to get lost in nature. she's the reason i smile everyday.

i get weird dreams of bitter sadness but i think it's my subconscious trying to make me dredge and deal. it's pointless going back there or re-living the anger. i will just say, breathe. you're a horrible memory and i will expunge you permanently.

helping the boy also helps put the anger with kev aside. he's really pissed on my head but that's his suffering. i will help to heal and not exacerbate. my mom's got major surgery but i think she'll survive. her will to live is tenfold mine. weird isn't it. i don't give a toss if i go and she's desperate to live even in her sorry state.

namaste.