love and light all around.

had a wonderful past two weeks catching up with friends, healing self and relationships with family.

this defines 2011 i think. it was due time to take stock of what needed to be fixed. first with my kids. it was estranged for the past year and i knew it wasn't right. since then, i've had no major personal emotional outbursts with them and i think my tranquil aura and home has somehow caught on with them. they've become so stoic and wise beyond their years. the love and support they share is so comforting to watch.i told them not to keep me alive if i were suffering like my mum and they understood. i think my job is already done here. i just want to spend the rest of my time left creating good memories for them, starting with little trips to phuket and japan. and we'll take it from there.

with my dad and mom it has also been major leaps in healing. i think my dad n i esp have forged a new and deeper understanding of each other. this crisis has drawn us closer and i found myself totally lost in his narratives, almost as if i got him. after 42 years everything that he is made perfect sense. and we're so much alike its uncanny. funny how it took all this time to connect. but i'm glad i did before it was too late. as for my mum, i know i still cant get her entirely, but that day i really felt her sadness yet admired her pluck. it's like another part of me was shaped by her too. so yes. it's healed major and i'm glad for it.

with  my workplace and colleagues, we've also forged such deeper ties because i gave them more focus and also opened up so much more. it has made me a calmer person and work and so much more compassionate of others. this also makes me listen better to my students and i think it really helps my general morale in my job. nothing really rankles my chains here as before. thanks so much to the support system and love.

shuj and darinee, the sweeties from work

so well, the rest of the year shall be no different. i will continue to focus on healing myself and others with my righteous light. it will be my sole mission till the day i die. how life makes more sense with time and looking back, im just amazed how far i've grown from the sadness. it had to happen and now i've become so much better spiritually and hence everything else as well.
namaste.