empathy.

today my kids unraveled their inner souls while they held mum's hand in the hospital. tears flowed freely while they tried to grapple with the reality of old age and suffering. and when they looked at my dad's expression of worn sadness, they wept more.

it was ambivalent. i was glad they were learning yet i was really sad that they had to see all this. but i guess this will shape how they are in future -- grounded in their values of kindness and empathy. that's something i want to leave the world knowing i've instilled in their emotional maturity.

i guess i've done good with them. they're so sensible and loving creatures, even the way their gentle bedside manner when taking care of lex's infirmities. it warms my heart that they're going to be amazing adults. i've seen how damaged some are as a result of dysfunctional backgrounds. they are selfish and entitled and lose sight of their innate good nature once ambition and vanity take over. i know jo and jill will still be consistently compassionate because i've raised them with nothing less than in truth and light.

namaste.