as it occurs.

woke at dawn for a stroll with the pooch. it was a lovely morning, peeps just starting their day in a leisurely pace. went to get a bunch of groceries and yurima's 'love me' came on the ipod. found myself humming along in a liberated manner. i guess happiness is really in moments of inexplicable bliss. you can't explain it because it simply occurs when you don't actively seek it. it felt harmoniously calm. mindfulness perhaps is instinctive too.
observing the little details of your surroundings.looking at the old folks start their tranquil routine of tai-chi, even the dead mynah bird in the canal, looking somewhat peaceful. i don't really know why i'm slowing down so much these days.perhaps a part of me wants to just fade into obscurity. it's not a conscious effort to retreat. i think i'm just really done with the world in general. not in an anti-social way, but i feel sometimes like it's a given, having already done so much.

i don't think i really want to connect with anyone anymore because it takes a lot of emotional energy, which i want to channel to introspection and meditation. it's the least complex practice which doesn't involve thinking or wondering. it's all about being who you are in the moment, regardless of the externalities. it's the simplest state we could stay in and i think i'm ready to just remain in it.