now i know why i've been so angsty,wtf does winding down mean??

1. 31 oct 730am  invig@ CJ
2. 1st nov 1.15pm dept meeting
3. 2nd nov 1.15pm staff meeting
4. 4th nov 7pm staff d&d
5. 8th nov 12pm invig@ CJ
6. 9th nov 7.30am  invig@ CJ
7. 10th nov 7.30am  invig@ CJ
8. 11th nov7.30am   invig@ CJ 
9. 14th nov 745am P meets parents,return promo scripts; 345pm H1 lect, lt 5
10. 15th nov 345pm H2 lect, lt 1
11. 16th nov 815am H1 lect, lt5; 1145am civics, check mark sheet
12. 17th nov 12pm  invig@ CJ
13. 18th nov 12pm  invig@ CJ
14. 21st nov 7.30am invig@ CJ
15. 22nd nov 8.15am H1 lect, lt 5; 2.45pm H2 lect, lt 1
16. 23rd nov 245pm H2 lect,lt 1
17. 24th nov: 9-1pm dept planning day (Jil's PSLE?)
18. 28th nov 12pm  invig@ CJ
19. 29th nov 7.30am  invig@ CJ
20. 1st dec 12pm   invig@ CJ

i was suppose to be in nepal by tmr. my vacation used to begin in november,wtf is happening?

i've really lost my essence to love and live.which is why i embrace the idea of leaving soon.