breathe.confront.embrace.be
so she went on stage and with a prepared speech started to alienate her audience once again.and then in the last 5 minutes she shared her experiences in canada during her sabbatical observing wildlife as part of her geog research.suddenly there was a real soul speaking, almost child-like and excited, about the northern lights, the polarbear and the goose seeing its last moments before a red fox had it for lunch, accompanied by slides and moral analogies for the benefit of the demoralised j1s who were about to get back their papers in the following hour.it was pure comedy in the making, well at least to my own amusement.
then i found myself relating and horrors, tearing as she shared her feelings of vulnerability (rare) and i guess she was alluding to losing her parents within the past 6 years.so school must've been very much her solace. that was the point where i guess i was moved because i think in that moment we all somehow were kindred in our private pain. we come to work everyday with purpose and to fill an emotional void.we feel somewhat comforted by its routines and rewards, but i think everyone just shares that inexplicable existential loneliness.
which is probably why i feel kindred to anthony kiedis when he wrote this:
then we all were dismissed for break where i was accosted by students to get rid of a poor little gooey toad lost its way in the canteen. i wanted to bring it home to show the kids haha or maybe i just felt it was the saddest creature in the universe, maligned for its appearance when all it wanted was to be left alone. as i picked it up after several attempts (it was a hoppy bugger) josh came around with a plastic bag to carry it to the wild and release haha.a bunch had already gathered and well,let's just say it takes little to amuse students here.so they applauded and i said, i think this would taste really good barbequed.
nary a dull moment here,nah more like from the sublime to the ridiculous. still i'm really sorry for the grotesques of humanity who feel that there is a lot more to their lives when the toad has probably seen a lot more in his experiences.
had to speak to four diff parents all morning about their kids being retained etc.sometimes i just want to tell them how life is really about suffering so they need to suck it up and move the hell on. or better still,stop blaming and take some action to make a change.as will i.
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and even the demi-ashton union couldn't survive the inevitable doom of age-disparate r/s
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my ray of sunshine on a muggy day
my lovely adorkable charges who make my job that much easier
