lie to me.

spent a long but rewarding day meeting parents, lying to them about 'what a credit their kid is to them'. even shared this with susan when all i wanted to tell some of them was that s/he was a moron.susan said, yes, but before calling them a moron we need to assure them that we're doing all we could to prevent it.haha she has a sense of humour. and i made her say moron. how gleeful. she likes me i think, so i feel the need to finish up the year before bailing out of the entire system.

i'm really tiring of the job anyway, all the lip service and deceit.day after day i conceive lesson plans to make a concept easier, to fill their vacant minds with something to think about when i think we need to internalise less and spend more time doing real things. im such a liar it makes me sick sometimes.all i want to tell them is life is a big fat lie and we're here to lie to you that it isn't.

poor young people. they've no idea what's really out there. it's just a cycle of disappointments and deluded notions of accomplishments. all it really adds up to is barely surviving and making ends meet. it's about working towards everything which will culminate to a final realisation of empty promises.

i'm drunk.or maybe too sober to kid myself anymore.
wow look it's 111111 today.make that llllll for lllllllies haha