why if i date again, it will be a man

Deceit is the game of petty spirits, and that is by nature a woman's quality. - Pierre Corneille

I'm done with games girls play, the petty ones of lies and falsehood which for some reason define the way they can only relate to people. i spent the past 3 years of my life buying into a game constructed of secrets and lies, all of which were craftily honed into a vulnerable art and i fell face for it because i have the propensity for compassion and real love. the person i was with declared depths of commitment and a long-haul of promises but they all amounted to a fabrication of possessive control, lust and deep-seated insecurities.

i've become a disenchanted lesbian because my relationships with women tend to wind up with so much more ugliness and drama because the innate nature of women is to scheme on the sly and never really showing their true countenance. i used to think the Byronic perspective was just partial but i've come to realise its timeless and universal truths. as a woman i've played games before, but in time i've come to realise the hurtful and destructive consequences of it and have tried at best to avert resorting to any form of degenerate behaviour of that nature. ironically, that only attracts the very base nature of other women who exploit the pretence of their vulnerabilities to ensnare my better judgement.

burnt.learnt.won't